Adderall

I was prescribed Adderall 3 years ago for my ADD. The truth is that I really wanted the medicine to lose weight, it was just convenient that I also was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder. Trying to quit taking this has been the hardest thing I think I've ever done. It's been so easy to justify using it but I notice that the more I convince myself that it's ok the more faint God's voice gets. I've been in a place where all I could hear was my voice and it cost me more than I could have ever imagined...I don't want to do that again, I pray that by God's grace it won't.
I don't really know why I wrote this, I think more as a confession, honestly. I've never really confessed this to many people so I might as well go big or go home right?!?
God, help me to hold onto the truth that you are better.

"I hear the Savior say
Thy strength indeed is small
Child of weakness watch and pray
Find in me thine all in all

Jesus paid it all
All to him I owe
Sin had left a crimson stain
He washed it white as snow."

Mowing the Lawn

Today while I was mowing the lawn the Lord gave me a convicting/brilliant thought. Just to rewind a little bit, I am now co-leading a small group of 6 high school girls who attend NewSpring's youth ministry called "Fuse". There are a couple girls that seem to really want to learn more about the Lord but the rest of them don't seem that interested. Last Tuesday the lady who has been leading these girls for a while now asked me if I wanted to lead small group for this week. I felt really privileged that she asked me and I definitely accepted. Over the past few weeks I've been trying to figure out which one of these girls was going to step up and be a leader for the group...actually, I thought "Why have none of these girls stepped up yet?"
Today I was thinking about that same thing when the Lord brought some names to my mind: Moses, David and Peter. These men were incredible leaders during their time but it wasn't because they were big time leaders before God called them, they were great leaders because they allowed God to lead them. They were not special before God called them but these men didn't rely on their leadership abilities, or their sense of humor, or their athletic abilities (this is where it got convicting) they relied on the Lord...they were desperate for him.
Being a leader has very little to do with how well you lead, rather, it's mostly about how well you follow.

Happy Mother's Day

4 generations...3 mothers!!!

Decided to throw an old school one in there! :)

LOVE THIS!!!

HAHAHAHAHA

God be the Solution

It is not a human right
To stare not fight
While broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find
The Mercy for the need

Singing, Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession
Yeah

It is not too far a cry
To much to try
To help the least of these
Politics will not decide
If we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Singing, Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah

Higher than a circumstance
Your promise stands
Your love for all to see
Higher than protest line and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Only You can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinners past
And set the captives free
Only You can take the widows cry
And cause her heart to sing
Be a Father to the fatherless
Our Savior and our King
We will be Your hands, we will be Your feet
We will run this race
On the darkest place, we will be Your light
We will be Your light

We will be Your hands , we will be Your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light
We'll sing

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah

We will run we will run
We will run with the solution [2x]

We will be Your hands we will be Your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be Your light
We will be Your light
We sing

music

"Solution"-Hillsong
"Awake My Soul"-Mumford & Sons
"Come Back Home"-Two Door Cinema Club
"Giving Up The Gun"-Vampire Weekend
"Count on Me"-Bruno Mars
"Rebels in the Roses"-Everest
"Ok, It's Alright With Me"-Eric Hutchinson
"Please Just Take These Photos from My Hands"-Snow Patrol
"Falling or Flying"-Grace Potter