music

"Solution"-Hillsong
"Awake My Soul"-Mumford & Sons
"Come Back Home"-Two Door Cinema Club
"Giving Up The Gun"-Vampire Weekend
"Count on Me"-Bruno Mars
"Rebels in the Roses"-Everest
"Ok, It's Alright With Me"-Eric Hutchinson
"Please Just Take These Photos from My Hands"-Snow Patrol
"Falling or Flying"-Grace Potter

"White Blank Page"

Can you lie next to her
And give her your heart, your heart
As well as your body
And can you lie next to her
And confess your love, your love
As well as your folly
And can you kneel before the king
And say I'm clean, I'm clean

[Chorus:]
But tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart
But tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart

A white blank page and a swelling rage, rage
You did not think when you sent me to the brink, the brink
You desired my attention but denied my affections, my affections

[Chorus]

Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life
Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life

Wrecked

So, Jesus pretty much wrecked me today...





...I LOVE that I serve a Jealous God!

Tunes...

I Love MUSIC!!!

"Down"- Jason Walker
"Killing Me Softly"- Colbie Caillat
"Make You Feel My Love"(live)-Adele
"The Anthem"- Planetshakers
"The Scientist"- Coldplay
"Rise and Sing"- Fee
"Still Breathing"- Mayday Parade
"The Special Two"- Missy Higgins
"Think I'll Go Inside"- Joshua Radin
"Days Like This"- Kim Taylor
"As Much As You Lead"- Lex Land
"The Longer I Run"- Peter Bradley Adams
"I Hear Her Breathe"- Sent By Ravens

selfish

I'm exhausted and I really want to make today about me, but it's not...Lord, please help me to remember that everything I have is a gift! My life is not my own!

For the Books...

This ones for the books
The broken signs of righteousness
Becoming more than looks
Becoming more than shades of grey
Becoming more than games we play
Screaming out my lovers name
Then looking to find the great escape.

I’m scared that I wont give up what I love
And that I’m less than what I’ve already become
Its easy for me to forget you’ve already won
And only by your grace that I’m able to be undone

These months have done a number on my mind
This thing called joy, I’m still trying to find
Have I become a wasted life?
But I know you’ve said “you are mine”

Cold sweats, sleepless nights
Becoming a worthless sacrifice
Each time leaving more of me
Wonder why I couldn’t stop these things…

Love

2-28-2011

Brianne would have turned 28 earlier today but she overdosed a little over two years ago. Brianne was my older cousin that I used to spend every day with when we were younger but as we got older we grew apart. When I was a freshman at Western I did something to hurt her and we never spoke again. When I became a Christian I tried to apologize a few times but I never received a response back from her, honestly, I thought that after some time she would get over it and we would be friends again...I was mistaken.
Brianne and I hadn't been close for years so I wasn't overcome with grief when I got the news that she had passed away, until I thought about the fact that she wasn't a Christian. My heart broke and it was a horrible feeling knowing that she never got to know Christ. I had been a Christian for two years and I never thought about sharing the gospel with her, I had never tried to share with anyone in my family. I've done some really really stupid things but not sharing Christ with my cousin still feels like the dumbest.
Earlier I thought about her mom and how she was probably heart broken today, and how she spent today alone because everyone forgot. We were all too busy being selfish to call her or visit her and she had to spend today alone. Her family forgot because we were too consumed with ourselves. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed with how selfish and sick my heart is right now.
"God, I'm so sorry that I don't see other people like you do. I don't look at them as being amazing creations, most of the time I just think about what they can do for me. My heart is beyond wicked. Please give me the courage and faith to share the gospel...not the watered down, americanized version, but the beautifully offensive gospel! I don't want to pass up opportunities to talk about you because I'm too focused on myself...I'm nothing but dust. I pray that I would think of my life as worthless if im not sharing the gospel! You have given me the chance to bring life to a dead world...please, God, don't let me waste my time worrying about worthless things like myself! I pray for Keri and her heart, Lord please give her some comfort because I know today had to be incredibly hard for her. Most of all I pray that she will become a Christian and that she will know true comfort and a peace that only you can give!"