I don't know

I've really missed my old friends lately. It may sound stupid or cheesy but I really do. I'm really trying to figure out what the Lord is teaching me through all this but sometimes it's hard, really hard. Lately I've felt forgotten, maybe it's selfish, it probably is, but that's how I feel and it sucks. I know I messed up...I don't want to shift blame or get any type of sympathy but how do I make things right? That's what I keep asking...and I think God might be showing me that I can't.